Life is all about finding your purpose, discovering your identity all throughout the process. A lot of people die without finding the right answer. This may be because of the darkness that has blinded people along the road. The only way for you to fight it is through enlightenment. Let God show you the right path. Believe that even if sorrows, despair and problems have conquered you by now, there will always be a light at the end of the road, a rainbow after each rainfall. Believe in yourself and have faith in God. For only through this process you will be able to discover your purpose, find courage to fight every adversity in life and move on. Letting God in your life would not cost you of anything rather it would release the negativity in you.